Sometimes I have a hard time deciding what to tell people about myself because I do so many different things, and have many different interests. So, I asked my friends on Facebook to use two words to describe me, and that is how the title for my intro was created.
I am currently 32, single, and the mother of four fabulously wonderful children. They really are like having a piece of heaven around most of the time. Of course they have their days, as we all do.
I have many different roles in life. I am a Singer, Writer, Political Activist, Online Communications Director, and Internet Business Coach. I love to dance, swim, and I enjoy the outdoors.
When I was in high school, I was on the dance team, that first year they called it the pep squad. I weighed 180 pounds, but no one would have believed it, because it was mostly muscle.
My First Year on the Pep Squad
I would spend 3 hours a day dancing at the school. I had practice in the morning for the team, and then I was taking an additional class during regular school hours. I did not focus too much on what I ate, but I do recall a great deal of crunches and push ups and running up and down the stairs until my abs and legs felt like rubber.
When I was 19, I got married, and had not been dancing for 3 years, but I still had not gained much weight. That marriage lasted for 13 years. My body went through a lot! I experienced 11 pregnancies, 3 of which were viable, and one of those were twins. That is how I got my sweet babies. Each of those 3 pregnancies were c-sections, and a majority of those pregnancies were in the first 5 years of my marriage. Because of how high risk I was, I was immediately put on bed rest, and that was not good for me at all. So for almost 5 years, that is where I spent a lot of time, in bed or on the couch, in a recliner and pregnant. My final pregnancy had complications of a failing thyroid and gall bladder. I had emergency surgery on the gall bladder when I was 29 weeks along, and after giving birth was put on thyroid pills. Over time, my thyroid healed some how, and I was taken off those pills. But I was experiencing depression for a lot of different reasons.
The Day of my Reception June 1997
My marriage was in turmoil, and I spent a lot of time blaming myself, and so I packed on the pounds. There is a part of me that really thought that it would protect me from the pain that I was feeling, and it would push people away from me, and that way no one could hurt me anymore. I know that those are not healthy thoughts, but that is where I was at the time.
My Personal and Physical Struggles Started to Overcome me
Eventually, I completely moved away from all family and friends, and became very reclusive in Missouri. I stayed inside most of the time, and suddenly developed a fear of going out in public and would send my ex-husband to the store rather then go out myself. I still kept going to church and some things with the kids at school, but I really avoided people, that was until I decided that it was time to fulfill my dreams, and I started to record my first Album “Only Prayers Away”. I completed that and created some additional tracks to work through things within my life, like the death of my son Ammon, and that really helped me a lot. Once that took off, and I started being known for my singing, I got online to promote that, and I got involved in studying a lot about the Constitution and Liberty Principles, and ended up in a meetup group. I did not go to the meetings for that one, but the organizer in that group still kept trying to get me to come out, and then in 2007, I finally came out to help support Ron Paul. Not only did I get out of the house, but eventually I became meet up assistant organizer, and then county coordinator and then eventually the District coordinator. I went on to help charter and was a director on the board of the Republican Liberty Caucus of Missouri. I became very active in grassroots activities, and helping in the community, and I became alive again. I felt that the more that I gave myself away, that I found myself.
Me Singing the National Anthem at a Local Radio Event
I was privileged to be invited to sing at many political events, my favorites are the Nationwide Chicago Tea Party in Springfield Missouri and on stage at the Tri-Lakes Center in Branson Missouri for Ron Paul’s Freedom Rally. I also performed in Ozark’s Idol as one of the top 40 Ozark’s Idols at Fire fall, with a crowd of 60,000. I had progressed to a point where I had a strong network of friends, associates, and a second family, and then I was given some unexpected news, and ended up returning to Utah with my children and filing for divorce.
I have been on a long road of healing, and this cleanse and diet are the next step in it. I am reclaiming my life, my health, and my body. I have let myself go in my own attempt to cope with some very hard situations in my life, and it is time that I become whole again. I have been working on the inside for some time. I have increased my spirituality, my social skills, my working skills, and have begun the healing process, but it is time that what is on the inside is reflected on the outside. It is time to put myself first, and to get to where I am happy with myself completely. Of course there is much more to my story than what is written here, but I am thrilled that you are willing to be part of my story right now, to see my experiences and what I go through, and it is my hope, that you will be encouraged and if you are in a place in your life that you are not happy with, then you will know that there is light ahead and you can do it!
I am LOVING, absolutely LOVING how these hcg drops are changing my life. By changing my health and feeling better about myself, I am doing more for myself than I have in a long long time. Life seems much more manageable now!
***Update*** January 09, 2011
A great deal has happened since my last update, and I think that the most important one to mention is that I got married! While it was a fast courtship, I have never been happier.
I got Married!
I am still working on my goals, and I am about to focus on them much more heavily, like I did before, in about 2 weeks. There are many goals that I have, and health plays a major part in being able to accomplish them. I look forward to continuing to share my journey with you!